very overextended right now and bordering on collapse.
if you want something you gotta go out there and grab it. aka note to self.
if I look really sad or depressed this next week just know that I am just really stressed out emotionally, physically, and mentally, and hopefully it will pass. so please be kind..
does this mean what I think it does?
(via kushandwizdom)
the common trend in my posts seem to be me being emotionally depressed, completely overwhelmed by life, or a combination of the two. wonderful!
i came back today after my meeting with my boss and realized that the contract work that im doing is due in two weeks. and then i thought to myself holy shit in two weeks is spring concert, in two weeks im two weeks closer to graduation, in two weeks i have a midterm, in two weeks i…
yeah.
time to take a deep breath and breathe. i just feel so buried right now…
i have no idea whatdafuq is going on in my cs program right now.
ive miraculously managed to write out these archaic lines of code that perform some form of black magic and spit out what my homework needs it to, yet im certain that i when i look at what i wrote tomorrow i will scratch my head and think who the hell pulled this kind of crap out of his ass. its code vomit right now but i frankly dont give a shit. at least it works!
last night at RAGE was freaking insane. i sweat like a fountain yesterday and my shirt felt like it was glued to my skin. pretty gross. i had a blast, though. im pretty dysfunctional and terribly coordinated when it comes to dancing but it really came down to just doing whatever and not giving a shit. unsurprisingly i felt a grab/squeeze or two but i took it in stride. im pretty sure everybody else who went with me also had a crazy time, and everyone looked fabulous, especially the girls (not gonna lie). after clubbing, i didn’t realize that i stubbed one of my pinky toes and that it was bleeding profusely in my shoe. it hurt pretty bad this morning but i managed to clip the part of the little sucker off.
.. and now its back to the reality of staying up til 3am working on my projects ..
this weekend rocked though ( :
- i somehow agreed to go gay clubbing. it will be the first time that i go clubbing at a gay club and i dont know if im excited or scared. probably a little bit of both? obviously the girls seem to enjoy it because they won’t get hit on random creepers, and the tables are kind of flipped in that regard. though i hope i can enjoy the night in peace..
- i was pretty disappointed after getting yet another rejection email, this time it was after 4 interviews though. i really thought i had it.. my job search is just really starting to wear on me. i feel like i am qualified for something and though i hope that doesn’t jinx me, i really really want to find a job before graduation (most certainly in LA i hope) ..
- i think taiko is the perfect conduit for my anger or frustration because i kinda played it all out on wednesday night..
- i still have it in me to go out at 3 am in the morning and go on random-ass food adventures. it just hurts so much the next day..
- and finally, note to self: either man up and make a move, or just give up. can’t chicken shit this forever : (
